i know he doesnt want to be with me he wants to be with her. so i'm not going to interfere. i'm just gonna sit back & watch my whole world disappear in every language how to say hello and goodbye are taught at the same time for a reason. because the hardest times in your life will revolve around these two phrases and nobody knows that i still fall asleep thinking about you if you knew what i've been through; then maybe just maybe you'd understand The sweetest sound of all is that of your own name spoken by the only boy you care about. when i'm older, and my little girl asks me who my first love was, i don't want to pull out the old photo album. I want to be able to point across the room and say "he's sitting right over there." once upon a time, a girl offered everything she had to a boy..and it just wasn't good enough he's one of those guys that you think you have a chance with.. the way he looks at you, that smile he gives you.. that laugh he only laughs when you're around. he's one of those guys that you finally realize you don't have a chance with until it's too late. when all the damage is already done. he's the kind of guythat you realize you have absolutely no chance with until after he breaks your heart. After all the times of being there for you 24/7, after all the love letters I've sent you, after all the times I accepted your apologies, after all this time, you're forgetting about me. So she shall sit up another night without sleeping cause he's still online && She doesnt want to miss the chance of him talking to her again like old times & when a guy breaks up with a girl and she begins to cry, don't think of the girl crying for the guy. don't think of it as she is crying because she's upset. think of it as she's crying because she's wondering what she done wrong. as if she wasn't good enough. she's crying because she's going to miss the memories of being with him. think of it as she's crying with what's left of her heart. nobody understands how much i miss you. i miss how much we use to talk & i miss all the things we used to do. i try not to admit to myself that i still feel this way. nobody knows that i still wake up thinking of you each day. i still think of you & i really do miss you. i would give up everything i have to be everything we're not.
Friday, October 30, 2009
i'll just make sure to act like im not totally in love with you when you walk down the hall with that bitch who stole you from me how come when you talk to me and laugh with me, im the one who always takes it the wrong way and ends up getting hurt? no camera could ever capture the look in her eyes and the feeling in her heart when she looks at him Sometimes I sit, stare & wonder what the fuck I’m doing wrong… and they say anything is possible if you put your mind to it, but hes all i've been thinking about and i'm not any closer to being with him i try to keep my cool around him but i'm just dying to tell him that he's all i ever think about & i love him more than words can describe every day i see you, & when i see you. i cant take my eyes off you, you mean everything to me, if only you kinda like knew.. && Even though I remind myself that we'll probably never be together, I still won't let myself fall for anyone else it's crazy how you think you actually meant something to someone and then they just turn around and prove you wrong some days i wish i was a little kid again when the biggest drama there was, was when your best friend stole your snack truth or dare. truth - tell me how you really feel. dare - prove it I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you & your memory & how every song reminds me of you and me & I can see us 20 years from now, drinking coffee watching our kids outside our little kitchen window i'm afraid to close my eyes cause i might think of you. I'm afraid to open my eyes cause I might see you. I'm afraid to move my lips cause I might speak of you. I'm afraid to listen cause I might hear my heart falling for you
Thursday, October 29, 2009
She whispered..."i love you"...and he just walked away saying "i know you do but i'm sorry"... we just have to accept that people are going to stay in our hearts even when they don't stay in our lives im so confused sitting here trying to think about every word you've ever said to me and see if you meant even half of it you've got someone here who wants to make it alright, someone who loves you more than life every guy i've met has left me in the dust, why cant one just stay and not break my heart another love gone wrong, another heart to shatter, welcome to reality where feelings dont matter & I am giving up this game & leaving you with all the blame, cause I'm sick of your lies, & I've realized you're never going to change goodbyes hurt you more than anything..especially when deep down you know..you will never say hello again this is the worst mistake i've made and i make thousands everyday. if you give me one more shot, i'll make it up in every way. i'll call you twice a day, and drive you to the airport, just so i can watch you leave even if you're leaving me. & this is nothing new, you are slipping through my fingers I miss you. i miss the way you smiled at me the way you were always there and how much you truly cared Why would I look for something in someone else;; when i see everything in you
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
& it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls, & you haven't got the time to remember how it was You know you love him when all it takes is one song on the radio to make you think of him and the next thing you know you have tears running down your face I'm looking at your picture cause it's all that I've got maybe one day you & I will have one more shot && everytime the phone rings, I breathe in slowly and pray that it's finally you, calling to say "I want you too." her voice became his passion, his love became her obsession. it was sweet, yet dangerous by just how she wanted it being around you - makes me feel like for once in my life, i don't have to try to be happy, it just happens gorgeous eyes ; gorgeous smile he made her life worth the while a broken soul a broken heart the day he made her world fall apart Don't even bother anymore..she can see right through your lies i woke up and called this morning the tone of your voice was a warning that you don't care for me anymore They tell me to forget about him, but lets see if you can forget about your whole entire world. i try not to love you..i try not to care..but the harder i try, the more i wish you were here. Give me your autograph, superstar. Sign it right here on my heart. I don't think you're leaving. I think you're running. And what I can't figure out is, are you running towards something you want; Or are you running away from something you're afraid to want?