Wednesday, October 7, 2009

stupid nicknames for each other hugs from behind, late night talks, holding hands under the stars, laughing until our sides hurt.
no... we're just friends

I want that kind of guy who I can run to with tears streaming, make up smearing, and the first thing he says is, " alright, who's ass am I kicking?! "
& oh, you messed up, you let the only girl who has ever really cared slip away forever.
I saw you today, but I immediately turned my head and walked away. I knew that if our eyes just happened to meet that's all it would have taken to bring me to tears.
a year later i showed you two pictures of me. in the first one i was gorgeous,my smile was perfect and my eyes glittered. i was honestly happy. in the second one, something was different my eyes were dull and my smile was fake. i looked into his eyes and knew he knew what the difference was. "you see this picture" i ask, pointing to the first one,"thats happiness, thats when we were together. thats the difference, we were together when that was taken" you looked down at the ground and try to avoid my eyes. "i know" you said "i can tell".
i love how i can be a total idiot around you, and you will still make me feel ABSOLUTELY amazing
every little call you don't answer..
every little lie you tell me..
every little thing that you don't say..
well all the little things add up to a big heartbreak.

when two people are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is to far , & NOBODY can tear them apart
do you have any idea what i'd do for you? any idea of how much i love you. any idea of how much i hurt everytime i see you with her?
You've taken away her smile, her laugh, the happy girl she used to be.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

& I miss your hugs, how you held me tight when I was scared, I miss how you wiped away all of my tears, & no matter how bad things got, you were strong but most of all I miss how you held me up & made me laugh through it all.
& after awhile, you learn the difference between holding a hand & falling in love, you begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something, promises can be broken as quickly as they were made & sometimes, goodbyes really are forever
I was leaning on you lacing both of our hands when I made up my mind that I wasnt going to give up on you; ever.
Did you ever notice how every time you like someone they don't feel the same way about you, they feel that way about someone else who in return doesn't feel that way about them?
i want you to look at me like you've never looked at anyone else, i want you to look at me like i have something other girls don't.
You know that boy i'm always telling you about? the one that i completely adore ;; the one i'd love to go out with & kiss in the rain? it's always been you.
you know what i want, just ONCE i want to be someone's reason for waking up someone's reason for going through another day. just one time i want to be the one being wished for, the one who makes a guy say "i'm so lucky to have her" i want to mean to someone, what they mean to me..
&& she lied. you all thought you knew every little detail about her life. sure, she had some great things going for her, but you didn't see her for who she really was inside -- her thoughts and dreams meant nothing to you. she never told you of the boy who was breaking her down .. she never told you that when he asked 'so you're okay with us being just friends now?' .. that she lied and said yes
it's the kind of crush where you just finished putting up your away message & about to walk out the door when " the one " signs on & suddenly whatever you were about to do - couldn't matter
so my cousin is pregnant & she was just telling us how she broke the news to her husband that the baby was going to be a girl & the first thing he says is aww.. boys are going to break her heart.
but young love is adorable; the kind where a boy will do anything to sit next to that girl he’s had his eye on since the first day he met her.
you know what i think hurts the most? the feeling of being replaced. it's like no matter what you did, it wasn't enough. and no matter what you do to try & capture their heart again, it doesn't seem to work. & you're suddenly left thinking that you'll never be enough & a sadness takes over your heart and never really leaves.
honestly;; ii would rather see you one day a year than see someone else seven days a week.
Have you have had that empty feeling inside of you like no one cares or loves you back ;; as if you cried ; no one would be there to wipe away all of your tears?
I mean, there are times when you have no clue what to say to someone, no clue how to end their pain, but to give them a hug, it doesn't take away the pain, doesn't make the problem go away, but it gives them this little ounce of hope, that makes it all okay..just for one moment.
i know everyone else would rather go to all of the dances at school but, cuddling with you and watching movies sounds 10 times better
and he whispered to her, the only way i could ever hurt you is by holding your hand too tight.
I'll ignore every one of them...cause i only want you.
we sat there in silence that night, not uncomfortable, just glad to be together.
You're like Santa and the Easter Bunny combined, just as charming but just as fake.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

In front of total strangers, would you kiss me?
Call me for no reason.. just cause you miss me?

he's so confusing. some of the things he says to me makes me believe that he really does like me, and then some other things he says makes me believe that i'm just a girl who never crosses his mind.
i kept running back to the one thing i needed to run away from the most.
You can't do this. You can't put one relationship on hold for another. It's like call waiting... you leave one person on hold long enough, and they'll hang up.
you & me ; its like writing our names on a foggy window & watching them fade away.
even though we have our bad days, i’ll call you an asshole & you’ll call me a bitch, by the end of the night it’s back never ending laughter and "i love yous" that we don’t quite know the meaning to.
you're a complete asshole when i want you and the sweetest guy when i don't need you.
looking in your eyes, seeing all i need. everything you are is everything in me. these are the moments i know heaven must exist.
i think what hurts the most is having the perfect picture of how things
[ could be ] [ should be ]
..but they just aren't.

I wanted you to be everything to me now I've got to learn to carry on. I know I cannot hide this emptiness inside but nothing is the same since you've gone
& when I wanna smile, I remember that night.
i want a guy thats sweet, you know give me his coat when i'm cold, stand up for me against his friends, treat me like i'm one of a kind, but most of all loves me for me
he completes her.
nothing more, nothing less.

i'm just another one of those girls who laughs during phone calls forces herself to fake a smile everyday & then collapse on her bed and wonders why he will never be hers
Have you ever just been sitting there minding your own business when you hear that sad song come on the radio & you start to cry & you just cant stop because at that moment, all you want to do is tell him how you feel & just hope he understands..but you can't anymore.
so talk, come on and open up. it's only me, it's the same old me. the one you used to love.
we pull into your driveway. i dont want you to leave. the stars get your attention, i lean back in my seat and we just talk & listen to the mix tape that you had made me days before.
you do something to me that i cant explain so would i be out of line if i said i miss you? i see your picture, i smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine, you have only been gone 10 days but already im wasting away. i know ill see you again,whether far or soon, but i need you to know that i care & i miss you.
If you love her, tell her she's amazing; pick her flowers from peoples' gardens; throw rocks at her window at night; make her laugh; slow dance with her even if the music is fast, or even if there is no music at all; kiss her in the rain; but most important of all... JUST TELL HER
Hearing "I love you baby" from anyone else, just wouldn't be acceptable.