Sunday, December 27, 2009

"I'm not saying i can't live without you, because i can. I'm just saying i don't want to."
I've began to realize everyone has become the person they swore they'd never be
Just because it didn't last forever doesn't mean it wasn't worth while
One of the hardest parts in life is deciding when to give up and when to try harder
Add ImageThere's a huge difference between giving up and letting go.
Giving up is sacrificing what was rightfully yours, and letting go is forgetting what never was

Take chances, alot of them. because honestly, no matter where you end up and with who, it always ends up the way it should be. your mistakes make you who you are. you learn and grow with each choice you make. everything is worth it. say how you feel. always be you, and be okay with it
God gave use two eyes, two ears, two arms, two legs, two feet, two hands, but he only gave use one heart, do you want to know why? Because he gave the other one to someone else and it's your job to find it
Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere
Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who means the world to you, especially when goodbye isn't what you want
Just when you think things can't get any worse; they do. But i've learned life is like an hour glass sooner or later everything has to hit rock bottom but all you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to turn everything all around for you

Thursday, December 24, 2009

The biggest mistake you can make is drifting away from someone who you once had the time of your life with
Sometimes you just need someone to look forward to seeing you everyday
"I don't care about your past, all i wanna know is if there is a place for me in your future"
"You're letting her think she has a chance. And there is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don't."
when people can walk away from you, let them walk don't try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, caring for you, or staying attached to you. when people can walk away, let them walk. your destiny is never tied to anybody that left
You'll never know how strong you are until being strong in the only choice you have
Day by day, nothing seems to change but pretty soon, everything's different
I'm not gonna to write you a poem or tell you how much i miss you because words can mean nothing. But when you see the tears streaming
down my face, hopefully you`ll understand

Strength is nothing more then how you hide the pain.
Sometimes you have to accept that some people are going to stay in our hearts forever, even if we aren't in theirs.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Girl's confession


Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life , only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.

Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend" one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute.

Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change . We listened to our friends tell us that we we 're stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for while . We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking we would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us . We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

Here's for the ones who did their hair and makeup & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn ' t bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder "what if".

This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with .

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that " things were going too fast, he needs time ". Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. < / P>

This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an " I told you so ". The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake by ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.

Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here are for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better .

This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt.

Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the hell he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day you'll find a guy, who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry . You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like hell, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

You were never a waste of time, your were just a harsh realization that i could do better.
If your lucky enough to be different from everybody else, don't change
If you care about me at all, you can't keep on living like you don't. I will leave, and this time I won't come back.
"You don't get to have me. Not my body, and sure as hell not my heart."
Leave me alone. You've already hurt me enough. Don't say there's still hope. Everything we had, is no longer there.
You told me you loved winter and I said, "Yeah, because that's when everything is as cold as your heart."
Life is like photography: we develop from the negatives.
Actually, I don't even know why I'm still around, why I'm still waiting for you, why I still let you hurt me.
Live every moment, love every day, because before you know it, precious time slips away.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

To be uncertain is to be uncomfortable. To be certain is to be ridiculous.
It's better to have a pocket full of regrets than to never have lived.
"I've seen your act and I know all the facts. I'm still in love with who I wish you were."
Push me out from the darkness to a sky that's colored blue. Somewhere, someone's finding happiness while I'm still here so hung up on you.
I just don't want to do anything to pressure you. Or drive you away. Even though sometimes I can't help it. Just like I can't help that I fell in love with you. Cause I did. I love you. And it scares me, a little bit, but, there it is.
I'm still waiting for that one guy who doesn't mind laying underneath the stars and holding my hand.
You know when your friends claim you're beautiful? And you're the skinniest and you're the one with the perfect skin? They're saying it to remind you that you're better than the jerk who hurt you. Except it's not helping, because the whole time they're telling you that, all you can think is "it wasn't enough the keep him"
She’s strong, because she knows what it’s like to be weak. She keeps a guard, because she knows what it’s like to cry herself to sleep
it's weird how you go through a whole year and nothing seems to change at all. then a year later, you look back and everything is completely different.
tell me that doesn't mean anything & i'll drive away right now. and when we pass eachother in the halls, we can pretend we don't even know eachother.

Friday, December 11, 2009

all night long i layed in the grass and listened with headphones to the saddest songs.
do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives, or if the moments in our lives make us?
yesterday, at the market, i saw a couple holding hands, and i realized we would never do that. never anything like it. no picnics, or unguarded smiles. no rings. just stolen moments that leave too quickly.
you take the breath right out of me ; you left a hole where my heart should be. you got to fight to make it through . . .cause i will be the death of you.
you gave me wings & made me fly. you touched my hand, i gotta touch the sky. i lost my faith, you gave it back to me. you said no star was out of reach.
"It is amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart can take."
i think that sometimes we love people so much that we become numb to it. because if we actually felt how much we really loved them, it would kill us.
I want you to know that I love you. I never did stop. Not for one gasping second. My love for you is unconditional & it will never end as long as I live. I refuse to find others when I have the one I want. I never doubted us, but you did. I never stopped thinking about you even though you stopped thinking about me. I never wanted to let go, but you did.
You never stop loving someone; you just learn to live without them. & when they finally come back to you, it`s like they never left & nothings changed.
i wish there was a more elegant way of saying "i miss you" because it feels so much more complicated and involved than just those three words.