Thursday, April 14, 2011

Sometimes you gotta smile and walk away, hold your tears in and pretend you're okay.
"Hi" is such a small word. But from the right person, it can mean everything.
Pictures show the meaning of what things were once like.
And when I saw you holding her hand, I lost my breath, choked on my words, lost my thoughts, and wanted to cry because I just couldn't understand why you would do that with her, and not even think about doing that with me.
Walk a little closer to me, feel my heart beat.
I love how you called me "beautiful," told me I light up your life, told me you wouldn't ever leave me and showed me you love me. I hate how you left without a care in the world.
Dry your eyes. Clear your mind. You just gotta take it one day at a time. Dust off your heart. Take it off the shelf. You've gotta remember to love yourself.
I do not hate you, and have never hated you. I was angry at you and depressed by you and confused about you. But hate never came into it.
The worst thing about going back to school? No, it's not the getting up early, or the homework. Not mean teachers or crowded hallways. It's seeing the boy it took you all summer to get over, and falling for him all over again.
There's nothing I would change, because it's life's little bumps and bruises that make you who you are.
Believe nothing you hear, half of what you see, and everything you feel.
You can't deny it, things have changed. We've grown apart, and you have to face the fact that I will no longer be there every single you need me.
The sparkle in your eyes could make the stars compromise.
And you're missing what's right in front of you: a girl who's willing to give up anything for you.
A girl worth kissing is not easily kissed.
It's so frustrating to try to explain. I wish you could just know exactly how I feel about you.
Sometimes it's tough being a girl. If you hate a pretty girl, people will think you're jealous. If you like an older guy, people will call you a slut. Whenever you get itno an argument with your best friend, no one will care and say, "oh, you'll be friends tomorrow," and when you fall for the right person, everyone else thinks he's wrong for you.
The hardest part about growing up is letting go of what you were used to, and moving on with something you're not.
Things won't be the same. You're gone and only memories remain. I'm not ready for this change.
Before I met you, I never knew what it was like to be able to look at someone and smile, for no reason.
We were standing there hugging, happy to be in each other's arms. I swear that hug could've lasted forever. And then you kissed me. And I could've never been so happy to be with someone.
You know you really miss him when you're sitting on your bed with tears rolling down your cheeks for no reason at all.
I want him to be sitting there when suddenly, I cross his mind and he thinks to himself, "Wow... She's beautiful."
And as I zoomed in on your picture, I realised that's the closest I'll ever be to you.
And it's amazing how one minute, you think you will never get over him, and suddenly, here comes this other boy who completely steals your heart, even if he doesn't notice it.
Music is comforting. When everything changes, the lyrics stay the same.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

I've changed. Get over it. Everyone else already has.
Life is better lived forward, but better understood backwards.
You're talking to the girl who has laughed, sobbed, loved, cried, smiled, yelled, screamed, sang and has made it through it all.
Beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego.
When you think you've lost it all and the words are harder than the fall, that's when you find yourself and you realise you've gotta do what's best for you.
And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely.
I love his cute little comments. The way he makes me laugh. The way he's always there and the way he knows how to get my heart. And it makes me wonder, why is he so perfect?
Even though I've "stopped liking you," every time someone says your name, my head turns right towards them. It's like every time I hear it, I think of all we could have had and all that could have happened, that didn't.
People ask if I'm in love with you, because I'm sitting here with your picture and smiling to myself. I'm kind of lost in my own thoughts of you. My heart speaks before my mind thinks through and I blush as I say yes.
I fall asleep to escape my thoughts, then wake up to escape my dreams. There's no getting away from the thoughts of him.
Every night, she finds herself lying in bed, reliving and remembering every glance he gave and every word he said.
You know you mean a lot to him when all of his guy friends know who you are.
Colour outside the lines. Let yourself daydream. Agree with your imagination, and laugh at all the rules.
You can't stay mad at someone who makes you laugh.
I don't want anyone else to get the chance to realise how amazing you are.
Enjoy yourself. These are the good old days you're going to miss in the years ahead.
So play me back the song from that night that made us fall so hard.
Sometimes, when you find something great, you have to give up a lot to hold on to it. The way to tell if its worth it or not, can only come in time, but without giving it a chance, you will never know.
Never let success get to your head and never let failure get to your heart.
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures and overanalyse your words. But the truth is, that I've never fallen so hard.

When someone is gone from your life for a really long time, you start to forget about them. Like, you forget what their voice sounded like, and how they loved you so much, and how everything you did was completely okay with them.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Over the past year, I've learned so much about love and life. Even if I could, I wouldn't take back all the things I've done because they got me here, to this moment.
I want to be the girl in the picture on his dresser. I want mine to be the window he wishes he could throw rocks at. I want my fingers to be the ones he dreams about lacing his through. I want to be free of wanting this, but only if it means I don't have to want it anymore, because it's all mine.
The girl who seemed unbreakable, broke. The girl who seemed so strong, crumbled. The girl who always laughed it off, cried.
Take a hint, silly! I like you! (:
If I wanted any drama, I would have signed up for a play.
Sometimes you have to deal with your problems without any help from your friends. Just to see if you can.
Take your damn fairy tale endings and your hopes, dreams and wishes and shove them up your ass. This is the real world, and that shit just doesn't cut it anymore.
Even if I said I didn't care a million times over again, you'd know that I still do.
Laugh when your eyes are burning. Smile when your heart is filled with pain and don't let him know how much you really need him.
Right as I let my guard down, oh, there you go again.
I want to be able to read a love quote and not stop halfway through because I thought of you.
Life can change in a second or two. That's the way I felt when I saw you.
Our names sound so good together.
I looked out the car window today and I'm realising that I miss you again. It's funny how out of nowhere, you came to mind. The truth is, I wish you were still here.
Never regret anything; no matter how much it screwed up your life.
I enjoy the chase, not the catch.
I see a glimpse of you and I have to stop and catch my breath.
The first step towards change is acceptance. Once you accept yourself, you open the door to change. That's all you have to do. Change is not something you do. It's something you allow.
I just want to wake up one day, and just be happy with where I am in life.
It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness.