Saturday, September 5, 2009

& I thought I was over you by now but i guess I am the jealous type. I saw some girl all over you and got those butterfly feelings again.
& perhaps all i ever did was give my heart to boys who never cared.
life was so easy when i was five: boys had cooties, mom picked out my clothes, everyone was friends, and everyone was themselves.
And people tell us to go out. But we say no. Because we enjoy flirting, and being happy with that. Because we both know any more than that, would end in heartbreak.
& one day, he`ll be sitting there, asking God why he can`t hold her. & all God would say is, " You Let Her Go. "
how come when you say my name, it sounds a zillion times better?
when a guy calls you hot, he's looking at your body, when he calls you pretty, he's looking at your face, but when he calls you beautiful he's looking at your heart <3
i still remember that moment i looked in your eyes for the last time & that one little memory still has the right amount of love to make me cry.
sometimes i ask myself "does he really care?" or does he just like to pretend he does so he always has someone to fall back on when one of those other girls aren't around?
At first you think its great you're talking to him again. But then you start talking about things that happened before.. bringing back old memories, & then you realize how much you really miss him, & you get to thinking you really want him back. But you remember he doesn't need you like you need him...and it hurts.
if he was stupid enough to cheat on you, he was dumb enough to get caught.
Part of me wishes we were like goldfish. They only have a 3-second memory. That way I would never remember who you were Or what you did too me. You’d just be this person I kept seeing, but never knew.
At the end of the day, you can either focus on what's tearing you apart, or what's holding you together.
It's weird, you know the end of something that has taken so much time to get over is coming & you're so relieved that it's finally here but you still, for some reason want to hold on. Just for one more second...just so it can hurt a little more. After all, this problem has been your life for so long you're not sure if you'll be used to being free.
If breaking hearts were a crime, 90% of all boys would be locked up for life.
I get false hopes that you love me, and give false signs that I don't love you.
"If You Love Something, Give It Away."
"i'm sorrys" do not fix broken hearts.
"oopsies" do not dry tears.
"i'll be better next times" are just a waste of time.
& "i promises" don't mean anything anymore.
Please don't act like you care. You can't care. I know you don't. You've watched me destroy myself for too long now. && if you really cared, you would have tried to stop it by now.
"Hi" is such a small word. But from the right person, it could mean everything.
nice guys went extinct along with the dinosaurs.
there was this little part of my heart saying, "hold on, it's not over yet."
the moment that you start to feel sorry for yourself is the moment people start walking all over you.
maybe that's what I'm starting to realize. the pain is temporary, but the connections we make, they last forever and change our lives in ways we're not even aware of yet.
So I say a thousand stupid things, and half the time I never mean them but this time I’m serious. I’m never going to talk to you first. So if I mean anything, anything at all to you. Then you can talk to me because I give up.
dealing with backstabbers, theres one thing i learned.
they're only powerful when you got your back turned.
Now that I'm gone, you've finally realized that I was worth waiting for.
But, obviously, you weren't.
to find someone you love, you've gotta be someone you love.
Like a rainbow after the rain, there's always good that follows the pain.
Something still exists as long as there's someone around to remember it.
No girl should ever forget that she doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her.
I won't lose sleep over you. I will not cry over you, I won't save no shit from you, but instead here's what I'll do: I`ll date every guy I see & make sure that you see me & you'll regret that you're no longer the one standing next to me. I won't hate on what you do when you find somebody new & realize you are a fool, but instead here's what I'll do; shake my head with such disgrace & throw my success in your face.. To be back with me is what you wish. I'll make you hate yourself for this.
And after awhile, you learn that you don’t need anyone else in order to survive. No one else is ever going to always be there, no matter what they say or what they promise you. You just gotta suck it up, accept it and keep on keepin’ on.
It's hard to hold a lot in. But for me, it's sometimes even harder to let it out.
When the remembering was done, the forgetting could begin.

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