Sunday, August 30, 2009

she sits there and randomly laughs because she`s thinking about the joke you told her earlier and how much she loved your smile.

it was just you and me.. two friends. & then with a simple look, my hand fell into yours
and there i go again...
dreaming of something that i know will never happen.

It’s not going to happen, i’m pretty much aware that no matter what I say to you, you’re not going to care.
here's to the night i stood alone in the park,to the night i cried so hard i couldn't breathe, to the night i prayed for him to come back to me, & of course to the night where he never looked back.

maybe, just for one day we could be together holding hands while walking around.
making every girl jealous that I got you by my side.

welcome to a world were people talk about each other & everyone lies everyone trys to be something they' re not, nobody can keep a secret for their life & friendships that lasted years are broken. it's called life.

and when i think about you i have to remind myself if he wanted to talk to me he would.
i love the way you make me feel during our long phone calls and our short visits during the week and our late night fridays when you tell me you love me and actually make me feel wanted.

It's funny. I didn't even like you all that much, but I find myself missing your arms around me, & the little kisses on my forehead, & just sharing your body heat when we would hug. I miss feeling appreciated & wanted. I miss that little bit of comfort.
I like him. I'm not crazy about him yet, I'll be ready to say good-bye later, but I like him. & that's enough for me right now.

Sweetie, who are you're wasting your time, he'll never love you.
and one day. i hope i'm the girl that turns heads. the one that makes all the players swear to change. the one that anyone would do anything to be with. because i'm so sick of being the one that falls for that guy that breaks her heart by loving her best friend. or the one that gets played. i am so sick of it.

If you want it & you dream about it, there's nothing that's going to stop you.
It's better to cross the line & suffer the consequences than to just stare at that line for the rest of your life.

If I freak out, and try to run away, promise me you'll be there to hold me back and keep me from making the biggest mistake of my life.
life isnt easy. love hurts. boys lie. friends stab. people die. parents yell. you always try.
you`re never good enough. & you don`t know why.

You're too good to be true, i messed it up && now i don't know what to do.
i look into your eyes, you turn the other way, and now i wonder if its all a game you play.

When I need a shoulder to lie on, i want you to be there for me.
But if that's too much to ask, you might as well leave now.
'Cause I don't need a guy that'll be there for me "sometimes."
I need a guy that'll always be there.

why do you blame her for leaving? you're the one that stood there && watched her walk away

and everyone warned her of that boy's smile, his poision kiss & toxic touch. but her craving for him was just way too much.
did you know she hates it when she goes a day without speaking to you?

Remember holding hands? Our fingers locked together...
Remember hugging? I felt so safe in your arms...
Time stood still, & it was all about me & you

I sit in my room and think about you. I mean these days, there is nothing left to do.

But, she goes on, everyday. Her life still the same. Hoping that he'd take a chance && give that girl a second glance.
I want someone to fall in love with the way I laugh and fall in love with my smile. I want someone to listen to the ramblings of my inner child. Someone who touches my face and brushes the hair from my eyes. I want someone who loves me or at least holds me like they do.
But I only want that if its you..

They were constantly together all the time when people ask if they were dating they quickly said no but they never knew how much the other
one wanted to say yes.

As I drive away, the love songs play on my lonely radio.. but I shut them off because all they do is make me miss you so much more.

you were the first nice guy I met after so many bad ones. and I didn't know if you were the one or just the first good one, so I went out and met
some more guys. some of them were fine, but none of them were you.

and she's scared to tell him because of that one stupid boy that led her on, made her believe he really liked her, then just told her it was over. don't you get it? she's afraid to love because of that one boy.

Just promise me one thing. You wont turn out to be like all the rest.
You love him. You know you do.
Just keep on loving...Maybe someday he will too

life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, believe that everything happens for a reason, and if you get a chance, take it, if it changes your life, then let it; nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised that it would be worth it.
Maybe you're not perfect, but to me you're just enough.

1 comment:

  1. I've spent my entire life replaying the feeling in my stomach as i watched her close the door. Don't ever give up