Tuesday, October 6, 2009

& I miss your hugs, how you held me tight when I was scared, I miss how you wiped away all of my tears, & no matter how bad things got, you were strong but most of all I miss how you held me up & made me laugh through it all.
& after awhile, you learn the difference between holding a hand & falling in love, you begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something, promises can be broken as quickly as they were made & sometimes, goodbyes really are forever
I was leaning on you lacing both of our hands when I made up my mind that I wasnt going to give up on you; ever.
Did you ever notice how every time you like someone they don't feel the same way about you, they feel that way about someone else who in return doesn't feel that way about them?
i want you to look at me like you've never looked at anyone else, i want you to look at me like i have something other girls don't.
You know that boy i'm always telling you about? the one that i completely adore ;; the one i'd love to go out with & kiss in the rain? it's always been you.
you know what i want, just ONCE i want to be someone's reason for waking up someone's reason for going through another day. just one time i want to be the one being wished for, the one who makes a guy say "i'm so lucky to have her" i want to mean to someone, what they mean to me..
&& she lied. you all thought you knew every little detail about her life. sure, she had some great things going for her, but you didn't see her for who she really was inside -- her thoughts and dreams meant nothing to you. she never told you of the boy who was breaking her down .. she never told you that when he asked 'so you're okay with us being just friends now?' .. that she lied and said yes
it's the kind of crush where you just finished putting up your away message & about to walk out the door when " the one " signs on & suddenly whatever you were about to do - couldn't matter
so my cousin is pregnant & she was just telling us how she broke the news to her husband that the baby was going to be a girl & the first thing he says is aww.. boys are going to break her heart.
but young love is adorable; the kind where a boy will do anything to sit next to that girl he’s had his eye on since the first day he met her.
you know what i think hurts the most? the feeling of being replaced. it's like no matter what you did, it wasn't enough. and no matter what you do to try & capture their heart again, it doesn't seem to work. & you're suddenly left thinking that you'll never be enough & a sadness takes over your heart and never really leaves.
honestly;; ii would rather see you one day a year than see someone else seven days a week.
Have you have had that empty feeling inside of you like no one cares or loves you back ;; as if you cried ; no one would be there to wipe away all of your tears?
I mean, there are times when you have no clue what to say to someone, no clue how to end their pain, but to give them a hug, it doesn't take away the pain, doesn't make the problem go away, but it gives them this little ounce of hope, that makes it all okay..just for one moment.
i know everyone else would rather go to all of the dances at school but, cuddling with you and watching movies sounds 10 times better
and he whispered to her, the only way i could ever hurt you is by holding your hand too tight.
I'll ignore every one of them...cause i only want you.
we sat there in silence that night, not uncomfortable, just glad to be together.
You're like Santa and the Easter Bunny combined, just as charming but just as fake.

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